>>14142196I am always scared.
Scared that the universe is a perfect loop: big bang->all the stuff-> heat death of universe-> some force which causes the cycle again->big bang.
I've made many wrong choices anon, and I wasn't happy in live, if the life is a loop that I am in endless suffering, literal hell.
Why I won't kill myself?
Because it won't help, the damage is already done and looped endlessly, the only thing I can hope for is for the rest of the live to be better.
