>be me, turns 20 in 5 days

>get raised by grandma and grandpa, because your parents left you

>grandpa dies because of cancer when you were 14

>go to a technical school because you always wanted to be an IT specialist and after school get a decent work to earn some money to help your grandma financialy

>your tutor is also your math teacher

>what could go wrong, thats the best scenario it could ever happen to me

>never be late for classes

>be a good student, help everyone how you can

>always attend for after school math classes

>hope that everything will be alright and im gonna pass easily

>after 4 depressing years in my final class im failing maths

>teacher picks you to answer very hard math exercises

>stressed out like hell and have cold sweat on your forehead

>hands shake like a fucking paralytic

>after spending 15 minutes, everything is almost done

>beproudofyourself.exe

>silence appears

>teacher walks towards me, and tells me that everything is wrong

>sit down mad as fuck and almost fucking cry because you did a small mistake that she could've just told me to correct

>teacher tells you that she takes me to the blackboard for about two years only to make fun of me and treat me like garbage, because im weak from maths and in this scenario she wants to encourage me to study more

>end up with five ''1'' grades at the middle of your semester

>lose faith in everything

>on the way home think about fucking ending yourself because you disappoint everyone and still you have achieved nothing

>go back home and almost cry your fucking eyes out when you hear from your grandma ''how was day at school?'' because she is the last person in your life that you want to make proud
im sorry guys if i did it wrong, its my first 4chan post, i just wanted to share todays story with someone and i dont have friends to talk about it.

if i made a lot of mistakes i also apologize, because im writting this stressed out as fuck.

thank you and im sorry again.