>>13945190yeah some of us are just weird. i went most of my life thinking i was normal and well liked by others and percieved as normal. in second half of high school it started to hit me how much of a fucking weirdo i was. i reflected on previous interactions and realized how autistic they were. like, we're in class working on something at a table, i look up and say something i think will be relatable, like a frustration i had that morning, i look around and everyones looking at me kinda weirdly, like slight squint in eyes, i shrug my shoulders at not getting a good response and go back to work. I didn't realize till much later how fuckin weird that was and how weird they though i was. everyone was really nice to me partly because i was the weird kindhearted smart "autistic" kid. no one actually wanted to be my friend, only a couple people were actually my friends but i kept them distant, and I could not make friends with anyone which is what i discovered in my last couple of years. like you i started giving a huge shit about it and became a depressive retard, but i've started to care less and less. we don't all have to be "normal," just happy.
