I'm 22. I'm enrolled in a 1 year uni assist program and going to University next year. I completed highschool at 17 and couldn't afford college (didn't help that I only tried to get into high ranked <expensive ones>). My familly was very rich, but my dad's friends backstabbed him and left him a depressed alchohlic. I got depressed and became a shut in after I couldn't afford uni.
My country has no prospects. Our president (dictator) is ratcheting up nationalism and creating border crises to get attention away from his disastrous policies. I finally have a chance to get my degree and get out of here and do something meaningful with my life. But I'm more anxious and depressed.
I worry about everything going wrong. I constantly regret the years I wasted. I'll be 27 by the time I graduate. 29 when I finish my msc abroad. I would've finished my msc next year if I wasn't a fuck up. All my ex friends have graduated while I'm friendless and alone. My dad's friends backed stabbed and ruined him so I'm not too keen on making friends.

I'm just full of regrets. I planned to hero myself at 25. It brought me solace that everything would be over soon. Being a neet, I didn't have to conform to what society expected young men to be. I'm now more lost than ever. My mom's familly is funding my tuition. The only reason I didn't off myself was because I didn't want to hurt my mom. Now she has given me a second chance. Why am I still depressed? If I do my degree well, I would be able to escape this hellhole. But now I'm completely stressed about what can go wrong, that I'm not studying like I should. I know that this anxiety will cause the very thing I'm anxious about (not studying well), but I can't stop. I'm so tired. It hurts so bad and I have no one to talk to. Now I don't even have the option to blow my head off. I wish I could just stop feeling this way. I cry alone at night when eveyone's asleep and that's the only time I'm expressing these emotions.