>>13837708>So you have gender dysphoria but aren’t trans?I certainly am not transgender in the sense that I do not live as a member of the opposite sex and have never pursued medical or social gender transition. If you want to define "trans" as "gender dysphoric", then I would be considered trans, but that's simply not practical.
>Pretty sure AGPGD isn’t even a thingI wished. My gender dysphoria is autogynephilic in nature and the desperation, self-loathing, sheer discomfort and occasional suicidality that I feel upon looking at the mirror is a direct byproduct of my sexual orientation. It feels like a legitimate sense of impeding doom, or hearing a judge condemning me to life sentence (or general permanent unhappiness). It's no different from the heterosexual / homosexual realization of being alone forever, but with the twist that it is also disturbing in a lizard brain level, because, when I look at the mirror, I'm expecting to see a female image.
Think of it as if I was not only a forever alone man who's devastated by the prospect of never achieving love and happiness, but also a forever alone man who always sees the scariest demon Satan has ever created when looking at a mirror. I like to thing that I'm prettier than demons, though.
I'm legitimately surprised that I haven't gone insane or locked in a sanatorium by now. It genuinely feels like Merzbow sounds.
>but if it was you still said you had dysphoria before your sexuality developedI didn't say that. I said that it was developed before masturbation, but not before my explicit sexual onset - that is, when I began fantasizing about having explicit sex. And, even if it was, it wouldn't matter, because I was already autogynephilic before my explicit sexual onset, just like straight kids are straight way before they start wanting to fuck pussy.
>>13837723Very few AGPs are trans, but many trannies are AGP.
