I used to have a pretty good attitude towards my nation and people and wanted to serve and help to the best of my abilities, but recently that changed. I'm open to all ideas for how this happened, but since I am not particularly religious, I would prefer a scientific explanation.

It all started a few months ago. I am entirely unaffected by the vaccine mandates, but ever since they were announced and I saw people stressing about losing their jobs my attitude changed entirely. I just felt strange, the only way I can describe it is like feeling dead or empty or something. I now no longer feel like I owe anyone anything. I only want to take, and I want to do everything that I can to give nothing back. I don't want to contribute, I want to leech. It almost feels like I've lost my faith in a god or something, I just feel empty and strongly opposed to being useful.

Is this depression or something? Something neurological? Is there something wrong with my brain?