I'm grasping at straws here to find a reason for why I'm dumb as I am. Took an abstract reasoning test and even the person administering the test looked a bit surprised when I had trouble with the first problem.

Every day I try to think back to my childhood, something must have happened. I dug up lead toys in my backyard from the family who lived there in the 50s, I hit my head a couple of times from rolling off the bed. I ate Kraft Mac and cheese nearly every other night for about 7 years. If I can't even have the baseline intelligence to get a somewhat decent job then what's the fucking point? Fuck it all.