I don't know how to study anymore. I was a straight-A student at a magnet high school, advanced math, top xth percentile SAT score without any prep and just the one test, full ride to college. All downhill from there.

I'm trying to teach myself something, anything, and it's just not working. Sign up for a kanji/Japanese memorization app, break my streak after 2 weeks tops. Same with Khan Academy for math (because I've forgotten everything about 7th grade level). Even trying to start a workout regimen, something always happens at the 4-month mark. And I don't mean like, "Ooh I did cardio once a week and just stopped." I mean that /every single year since I was 18/ I have cultivated an increasingly intense weightlifting and HIIT routine only to be injured or sick or simply psyche myself out almost 4 months to the day. I'm 30. It's not a pattern anymore, it's a law of nature.

I don't understand how to cultivate this habit of constant and consistent improvement leading to mastery that I can capitalize on or use to collaborate with similarly skilled practitioners. I just don't get it at a fundamental level. And there has to be a better way than just sheer willpower. There has to be, because otherwise I'm relying on something that's fickle and fragile.

What do, /sci/? What the fuck do?