To people in grad programs:

Do you ever feel like you aren't doing it for yourself or love for the field anymore?

I fucking love my field and I just want to immerse myself in it for the rest of my life. But the further I get along in academia the less it feels like I'm actually learning for myself or to better the field and the more it just starts morphing into this soulless monotony that I'm doing for someone else. It makes me think I'm going to start hating my field if I continue.

It's not like I'm doing poorly, my marks are great and I love doing my own projects/research, but I think about getting further down the line and it kinda just seems miserable.

I don't want to hate it, I just want to fucking enjoy learning again.

Anybody else feel like this? Has anyone left academia but still felt some sort of fulfillment?

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