I started a math upgrade course for highschool. I fucked around a lot and didnt end up focusing in school and was being an idiot. I finally applied for a uni application and got in but I feel retarded. I’m studying probabilities and polynomials right now for a midterm and I just feel retarded. I’ve been studying for 20-30 hours in the last 4-5 days and I’m still struggling with some basic concepts. Im just wondering if its going to get easier to understand as I progress. I haven’t been to school in 4 years and was just being an irresponsible young adult. I feel like giving up sometimes.