I'm a 20 years old male with an insane obsession with healthy, straight pubescent boys, aged 12-18. I feel repulsed by masculine, hairy adults, besides that, i am attracted to girls, be they hebe or adults.

I'm not proud of it, i developed severe depression and social anxiety because of these feelings.

What is the cause of this? I don't recall any traumatic events in my adolescence.

https://www.greek-love.com/general-history/sexual-experience-between-men-and-boys-by-rossman/why-do-they-by-rossman/fixation-at-early-adolescence#_ftn1