>>13568208This.
I wanted money so I commissioned after my math BS and volunteered for the nuclear sub option for the bonuses. Its fucking hell on earth and I'm getting gray hairs at 27. One of my classmates is now an associate professor at a state uni, and I was superuor to him in every way, meaning I could have also landed a cushy job.
I don't even use the money, I just spend it on wasteful shit to try and feel better and not cry, like luxury watches or nice dress clothes. Its not even worth buying a house or a car since I'm rarely ever not at work.
If I get out, I will be nowhere as proficient as I once was at math and will have a hard time going for a PhD. Ill end up a masters cuck working a government job, staring longingly at academia.