>>13467254>if you dont suicide on the waywell rn im thinking of doing it in october, depends on if i want to see the family one last time for christmas or not, time will tell, the pills shouldnt have gone past the expiration date
>how bad can you be sanctioned for self-medicationdepending on how much id buy it doesnt take much now to get behind bars for a couple of months and a big fine, and ever since the chinese seed made headlines anything coming from abroad is more likely to get tested
>what dosages do you take25ug plus whatever is in a multivitamin
>testosterone and other hormonesgenerally my hormones are all fine, but my sex hormones are fairly extreme on either end respectably
>just FUCKING DO ITi want to so fucking bad, i can keep making excuses for why i dont, which is perhaps the thing i hate the most about myself, i am doing this to myself and i cant stop even if i know what to do. fuck the brain
>something that kicks you out of your mental being into your physical/bodily beingmy self harming is mostly a double edged sword, some times it helps for a little bit, then i will hate myself for doing it, other times its just physical and mental pains, the right amount of physical pain can help a bit ive found. other than that ive found the moments right before anesthesia to be peaceful and morphine IVs to be fairly enjoyable if the drip isnt constant
>have you tried not touching any electronics for over a weekdidnt have much use of any while in a ward for over half a year
>perfect scores dont existnothing i did was ever good enough, it made me strive for perfection to such an unhealthy degree that even with perfect scores, thesis dissertations, and honors, it was never good enough, only "expected of me"
>did I say gymnow, i was being a bit generalizing, i did both gym and run outside when the weather wasnt trash, i never went to the gym for the looks but to try to be more healthy
thank you for having a conversation with me anon, i appreciate it
