>>13441291>you will die early as a result of self-neglectI figure that much, I'm only slightly over 100lbs and don't have the will to get up and eat often or shower, they said they have pretty good recovery rates with their therapy teams so I'm hoping I can improve a bit
Frankly I just want drugs, I've been able to recognize and stave off delusional and manic episodes for a while and don't get paralysis if I avoid sleeping on my back but at this point I wouldn't mind experiencing either of them. Feeling anything at this point, even the fear from the horrific sleep paralysis hallucinations, would be welcome.