I always wanted to be smart and be a scientist. Ive been watching videos on youtube for a decade and people think im fuxking smart because whenever im with friends I can talk about astro physics, biology, newton , maths etc... but in reality I just understand the concepts vaguely for exemple how thermonuclear fusion in the sun started from hydrogen then down to heavier elements etc. But in reality im dumb as fuck, i dont understand any of the maths bwhind it or any equations of any type. I can multiply and divide and pretty much it.I can barely do algebra. I watched l leonard susskind lectures and nothing he writes on the white board will ever be comprehensible to me. Are some of us doomed to be brainlets.