>>13403594Ive always been told I was gifted. Ive always been told I was extremely smart. Ive always been told that I needed harder classes. Ive always been told I could go to a prestigious college and get high marks and go win a Nobel prize.
But all this was told to me, nobody ever asked if it was what I wanted.
Turns out Im pretty average. I was a big fish in a small pond and it fucking broke me because of the immense outside pressure which then internalizes to pressuring myself, thus hating myself.
Penicillin is attributed to one guy but the amount of legwork and extra hands behind it was insane. The rockets and probes sent to space are not done by a single person, and yet Elon Musk is a household name.
The sooner you accept your 'mediocrity' (which is not mediocre at all from an objective standpoint), the more fun you will have in life. Not everyone is destined to do great things, Im sure as hell not, but anything you do will be great if you put the effort into it.
Im leaving academia because of this and will probably be working as an instrument monkey at some big chemical corp, and Im super happy about it. Ill get paid what I truly want for the time I truly want to give to achieve the things that make me happy.
Godspeed, anon.
