>>13376953>I said meaningless, not uselessThen you're double dumb. If you're reading a respectable math textbook (not some watered-down pop-math for midwits) then there is likely nothing that is "meaningless" in there. Once you have accepted the primitive notions of a theory, all other terms are defined in a meaningful way using those notions. So unless you're reading a faulty book nothing is "meaningless" in math.
>I liked knowing more and believed I had good ideas so it was very alluring to have a language for themWhat good ideas could you possibly have if you haven't even finished your education? Even Newton was humble enough to claim that he stood on the shoulders of giants, so until you finish climbing on top of those shoulders what could you possibly see? You're just arrogant and naive. And if you pursue math just because you need a "language" you will get bored of it pretty soon and you will start using math like many engineers do, namely in a purely manipulative and formal way without much understanding behind it.
>It's just that I think I'm having a crisis of sorts, I have this weird feeling of wanting to look for something that's fulfilling but I'm unsure if this is what I want my life to beSo you're just an egotist looking for "something" that will make you feel like you have a successful and meaningful life? You're no different than those e-thots who travel all around the world because they are "soul-searching" and eventually they settle for a beta cuck provider after they hit the wall and realize they weren't all that special after all and their life never amounted to anything much. If you truly had any interest in math you would do your damn best to understand it and you would feel miserable if you weren't doing math every single day. So, in sum, not only you have no talent for math, you also have no passion for it.
