>>3657139im sorry for what youve been through. i always liked bunny too
for me, its just that real life is... well, its shit with a couple of nuggets of gold in it
the gold being my friends who ultimately are why i tolerate reality in the first place, because i care about them. kyle used to be gold too, though not as shiny as the friend gold.
theres also some tiny pieces of silver or something too, which are doing drugs and playing video games i guess
kyle was, for me, a gateway to a "reality" that wasnt mostly shit, and instead was almost all gold.
the shit, of course, represents not only the shitty things ive gone through in life, but also things like throwing away half my life working , and all my fears and anxieties and things i hate about the world
it was a lot easier digging through the shit for the gold and silver when i had the ability to take a break and pretend like i wasnt in a pile of 99% shit for a little while. i wish i didnt have to dig through the shit just to be happy sometimes.
also feeling like i had a childhood and a boyfriend who loved me was nice and i wont be able to experience that again
