The Basilfag is making me sad because I wish the boy I was obsessed with had this much desire to have me around him... it took me years just to get him out of my head for a while...
He was so into it in the beginning but eventually grew tired of me...
In one of our last conversations he said he started to like making me wait the entire week before spending a few hours with me and that he felt good when I begged for him to stay instead of leaving to go do something else with his friends.
Even when I became aware of that I still felt horrible when I wasn't with him as really liked him even if he did those things to me, it made him happy so it felt okay..
But eventually he just stopped appearing and I was left alone with only him in my thoughts
