>recovering from stroke

left half of my brain was severely damaged. didn't return to normalcy until a couple weeks ago and felt like death.

was almost certain I was gonna pass away last night. i felt cold all over and body twitching

I was jogging 5miles daily this past summer. when my brain was blood clotted up and now I could hardly walk 2 blocks to beer shop without thinking about suicide

any advice?

sorry if I come across as attention seeking.

also should i visit neurologist? I visited one back in december and he was uncaring