>>5155966You probably got gaslit, ignored and abused to hell and back by peers and adults during your development
>no matter what you did it was never good enough>got told to do a thing you've never done or heard before and got yelled at for doing it wrong>forcefully handed too much responsibility at an early age>nobody ever explained stuff to you even when asking>always expected to be there for others but got ignored once you asked for anything>all these things combined helped you fail at anything you ever didthus you've developed a mild inferiority complex+insecurity.
Now you might be setting yourself way too high expectations/goals that you can't even see your smallest victories but blow your losses out of proportions.
I might be projecting and assuming a lot because i went through that phase where i despised myself and didn't even bother with anything.
What you might need to do is to compensate with the opposite.
Instead of punishing yourself senselessly, reward yourself when you feel you've got something right, no matter how small.
Stop giving a shit what others want or expect of you. Always focus on what the objective right thing to do is.
If you don't like something, don't submit.
Disassociate and formulate your thoughts.
Make a plan on how to deal with things.
And shake off habits that make you feel bad or guilty after doing them.
And cut people out of your life who don't care about you.
