I've no frustrations
I don't know much, I'M still a beg
but in recent months I realized a lot of things
the most important is how to learn
you need to have an understanding of how learning is happening, and you need to understand that you ,with high chance, can probably learn and improve
The problem is that yall base your learning on unstable things ,emotions ,or memes like motivation or discipline , have attachements to success that ultimately sets you up to hating yourself.
At your present state that is neet(being a neet is ok) with depression or worse mental illnesses issues. You probably complicate all things to no end and end up not doing anything because of the mental weight you've put up on yourself.
But the truth is simple
Everything is possible in this world, everyhing nasty ,and good , the latter being that you can learn the skills you want to learn and improve.
And it doesn't matter how long it takes or how old are you ,or how unsuccessfull. You need to stop thinking and just look at art as it is: just painting , drawing, and honing your skills. Just stop thinking and ask if you want to do it actually? Then you will feel that you want to do it, that's all you need to be certain.
The thing is that you need to heal yourself , got to restore your mind if you want to get good at anything...but lets not go that far.
You need to understand how to learn. You need to structurize things in your mind. Everything.
Why is that you feel anxiety upon drawing , learning , whatever stops you, you got to find the why's. Then start working from there.
On the side ,I suggest you start learning a skill that's not that hard to get good at , manual if possible. It can be whatever you want, fps ,rally games, working out , whatever . Through that you can get a grip on what is it like to learn and progress. And if you like to think so much, think of how you can improve, gather your mistakes ,shortcomings, and look for ways to overcome them, practices, whatever