>>99794839>How old were you when your friend died?
I was 21 when it happened.>how did it happen?
He was on his way to work. It was 4 in the morning when he suddenly felt that he had trouble breathing, he ripped out his earphones (stopping the music) and yelled for help.
An old lady came and helped him call 112 (911).
He died in the ambulance, a blood clot that went from the leg to his brain, killing him somewhat quickly. I suspect his large intake of sugar and energy drinks was the reason, he wasn't really that healthy. The day before he died, he mentioned that his leg was itching and he felt dizzy.
To this day I get anxiety attacks if my leg starts itching or if I have a hard time breathing.>And how did you cope?
I drank a lot of alcohol, learned to suppress my emotions, started doing drugs and moved back in with my mom.
The only way I could stop thinking about him was to get my mind of off reality by watching cartoons.>How do you continue to cope?
I think about other things, I drink alcohol, I watch cartoons and I draw.
I'd say that I'm still trying to figure out a way to cope, I still dream about him, he's telling me shit and asking weird questions.
I'm visiting a psychologist, but I'm so fucked up I'm pretty sure I'm permanently broken.
TL;DR: 21. Blood clot. Alcohol, drugs and cartoons. I'm working on it.