Anon, I found a girl that I was madly in love with, and she was everything I dreamt of. She was happy and smiled alot and really pixie dreamy. Not long after we started dating I began slowing down and she could see that. I was lucky that she happened to be slowing down at the same time, and we're still together after 4 years, but I still think about what if she still stayed quirky and fast paced. I couldn't handle that. I'm not even that old, but the way I live makes me feel like an old sick man.
Please anon, don't ruin your health, even unintentionally, don't become young old like I am. I'm already turning into my parents and getting middle age medical issues. I want to redo my life over again and not destroy myself. I want to experience young love with my gf again before it got dull and routine.. Don't become me anon, save yourself.