>Tfw no cute and dangerous but autistic gf who has trouble outwardly showing affection but obviously enjoys your company and quietly listening to you talk.
>Tfw you won't feel the slightest tremble in her hand when she intertwines your fingers together. Or see her flinch back for a fraction of an instant, before slowly leaning in as you share her first kiss.
>Tfw you will never watch old kung-fu movies together and re-enact the fight scenes.
>Tfw you will never trace over all her scars with your fingers while she akwardly tries to cuddle you. Grazing the tension in her muscles and knowing the power she locks inside of them.
>Tfw she will never fight down the fear she never knew she had and go to bed with you, where at first she treats you like she's handling glass, as though if she makes just one wrong, or presses in too hard, she'll break you.
>Tfw you'll never gently encourage her to relax and enjoy herself, feel her muscles truly unwind, and have the full brunt of her passion bear down on you.
>Tfw you will never hear her soft, restrained sighs and cooes turn into passionate groans of ecstacy.
>Tfw you will never run your fingers through her short hair in post-coital bliss and fall asleep in each other's arms.
>Tfw DC will never give her a solo again.
It hurts so much.
