>>89857785This is probably tmi, but ah well.
I'd say that it's up to you to classify yourself any way you see fit, but it sounds like you're not too happy with the labels you've prescribed yourself. I'm judging by the fact that you said you hope to grow out of it, and also that you didn't say you were aromantic too. Since you want to get into relationships again, sex is one of those things that's going to pop up again and again, even if you tattoo it on your forehead that you're asexual. If you see it as a problem that you aren't sexually charged, you should take steps to change that, but you don't have to resort to labels shutting out all involvement.
Honestly you probably just have a low sex drive. I never got around to masturbating until my early twenties and I see it as mostly a hassle, but sex is pretty fun once you try it. The relationshippy sex though, not the moany violent stuff you see. If you get a partner with a low sex drive as well, you'll be a happy camper. But make sure that person is more active because it sounds like you might be a passive person sexually, wanting someone to kiss you rather than you kiss them, which kind of sucks if you're dating passive people. I think this is a big reason why lesbian relationships are so sexless.
If you're hoping to "grow out of it", just meet more people and try giving masturbation another go. It can be kind of awkward, but getting comfortable with your body can give you comfort with your wants. You said you didn't feel anything, but try a hitachi magic wand or a rabbit. Once I got a rabbit I sort of had a sexual awakening, because orgasms are great. Hitachis are basically german in their efficiencies to get you off, not romantic at all if you're looking for that. Anyone can get off with a hitachi.
idk though. I'm reading too much into it, and I have more rambles if you're drawing parallels to Mary-sensei, but it's meh.
