I fear success and avoid bettering myself whenever I can out of fear that I'm too old despite being 20 and think that any attempts to become a good artist or create something popular at my age will result in being viewed as pathetic since I'm a total novice and novice ventures always suck.
I do this despite being aware that many artists in charge of popular things didn't start those things until they were older than I am and after several failed novice works, like Homestuck.
Why? I guess I just find comfort in convincing myself I'm worse than everyone, but not trying gives me the illusion that I COULD be better. In reality, I'm afraid I'll try my best and have to face the fact that I'll never be good enough. It sucks, and I'd like to try, but I have some sort of mental block that just makes me get anxious and afraid when I do.
On a related note, would any of you read a comic that is essentially Flapjack with wizards instead of pirates?