School wise and professionally I'm what white people dreamed of when they thought of the American dream.
Emotionally I'm a goddamn wreck due to the magical mix of growing up on the edges of a shitty neighborhood with an abusive family thst consisted entirely of women.
I've outgrown my need to fight people to get rid of my anger and to prove I'm a man but I flinch when women touch me and I might be emotionally stunted. I don't think I can love anyone and that makes me sad.
The future I see for myself now is that I'll move up in my career live alone in my nice comfy house and fill it with books and comics and slowly bit by bit fix myself.