>>77829403No idea. I suppose it has to do with a certain degree of social dysfunction and prolonged isolation from others.
I've never had friends and when I was going through puberty, the only female around me was my mom. Eventually, I started fantasizing about her sexually and it started to escalate where I would try to French kiss my mom and grab her ass and everything. My mom reprimanded me for that and I felt embarrassed about it so I never mentioned it. Over time, I lost that attractive feeling towards my mother and managed to get a girlfriend and lose my virginity. I've never had those feelings since and there's no way I could ever have them again -- the idea that it happened is weird and surreal... sometimes it feels like it didn't happen. I don't think my mom even remembers those things now and I've never brought it up with her and never plan to. I assume now that it was because of my isolation that those things happened, but luckily, I managed to find a girlfriend for that outlet. I'm still completely socially dysfunctional and unable to maintain friendships because I equate friendship with sex, but at least I don't have those weird incestuous feelings anymore.
