>>77477607This hits kind of close to home.
I've met her on a school corridor. My face turned white, I was about to puke. I didn't know who she was, what class, anything. But the was striking. A big cape of hair, a little messy, but as splendind as they were red. And the eyes that you just couldn't forget. My group of fags of course laughed at this for some time, but noticed the pure shellshock that one sight gave me, and decided to find more about her. A good job they did, but I still was too much of a coward to make a first move. I tried for 2 months, cut my greasy hair, tried getting into shape, failed, but still managed to look quite good. And I did it. We went on a date, had a cup of coffee, and just couldn't stop talking. Similar interests, tastes in music, fuck, she even immensly enjoyed anime. The best feeling in the world. I, of course, used my friends again to get her friends to ask a little about me. What are her impressions. They again, did a good job. I was apparently the first person she agreed to go on a date rightout. Splendid. But then, more new came. It wasn't really a date, more of a hangout. Because she doesn't want to date anyone, or be with anyone. She just wants to be left alone, and occasionally meet with people she trusts. Being in the trust circle was kind of nice, warm feeling, but the rest. It's been 7 years. Soon, it will be 8. We still hang out from time to time. My guys mostly moved, so i don't have any informants. 7 years, and I'm afraid to ask if she changed her mind about anything. It's not sad, just hollow. So hollow that i go to a fucking anime board and ramble about it in a Peanuts thread. I've been reading Schulz's comics for quite a while, but never knew this story. It puts everything in a very different, much more painful perspective. I wonder if he ever stopped thinking "what if" every single night.
