Yeah, I know most of my problems are my own Charlie has a problem with procrastination too. I also fuck up nearly everything I do, and I let these failures pull on me. I've frankly come to expect it as a way of life at this point, even though that's obviously not healthy. Yet, I haven't completely given up on myself, and keep persisting, even though I run into failure time and again. Really, my ego has come to expect a better future than I could ever possibly have. I become deluded and anytime I find success I'm never satisfied with it.
I can't bother to actually improve myself either, and I'm 90% sure at one point I had a "Peppermint Patty" and lost her. Basically, I'm a total failure who won't get better until I actually conscientiously decide to stop being such a dumbass.