>>121716284For the past two years I've been caring for my mom due to her developing a degenerative neurological condition that's left her mostly disabled. The hardest part isn't so much being on call nearly 24/7 (though it is wearing on me), but having to watch her gradually erode while simultaneously still being the same abrasive, bipolar person she's been since before I was born. I really do try to put our past problems aside and do my job, but it's really hard not to think of all the shit she's put me through while I have to cater to her every whim.
It's not like I was physically abused, or being yelled at everyday, but when she let loose, she REALLY let loose. And she's always had some excuse for her behavior, whether it was the aforementioned bipolar disorder, or her own bad childhood, or the alcohol she used to cope with said childhood. This isn't something you can readily explain to people who only see a frail old lady.
Some days I really do want to just stay in bed and sleep until midnight, but I don't have that luxury. My dad has to work, and he's getting on in years too so I have to pick up the slack. We don't have any relatives that aren't elderly or dealing with their own lives, so no help there either. It's really just me and my dad, and mostly me for the majority of the day.
