>>113133839Look man, I’m sorry, I try my best, but it’s just really hard.
I started by just liking “muh contrast”, but then I started browsing /BLACKED/ general over on /trash/, and that place just fucked me up so hard. It’s seriously fucked up. Don’t go there.
I’m not racist or anything, but it’s an objective fact that when races mix, there’s some “contamination” going on. I sort of started seeing it as a “second deflowering” or some shit. It may have stemmed from my mild guro fetish, mainly strangulation, of women just getting completely dominated or “ruined” or something. This is actually a fetish I no longer think about as much, although I do desire myself getting strangled. Maybe that’s where the tranny stuff comes from. Idk.
Anyway, my blacked addiction eventually got so bad that I decided I had to quit. I’ve gone through several relapses since New Years, but overall, I feel I’m making progress. I’m not thinking about bbc as much, but porn is still a problem. I used to EXCLUSIVELY fap to blacked porn, so going back to vanilla is still a challenge. I try to focus more on the girls rather than dicks, but live action porn still has that temptation of me going back to bbc. It’s just not as easy fapping to vanilla like I used to.
However, cartoon stuff seems to be immune to this, so I’ve been fapping mostly to that lately. It’s just much easier to focus on the girl rather than the dicks. Even if it is a black dick, it doesn’t matter to me. Cartoon porn is just better for me right now. I guess I’ll be stuck there until I’m able to get back into live action again. It’s not to bad though, I like cartoons.
>inb4 sick fuck kys blah blah blahLook man, I’m trying to make a change. Give me a break.
