I’ve tried therapy over the years but I’ve never found it to be helpful.
Also funny about discord: my last friend group was a discord group (before a Skype group) with a bunch of guys I met on a writing thread for another snow. We even met in person a few times. I ended up losing them due to my issues (I would vent about my depression too much) and sometimes having every severe emotional outbursts in chat. Got banned from the place I helped create and I haven’t fully gotten over it. I think I have really bad trust issues.
Maybe I’m not meant to have friends, or have a romantic relationship. Right now the only thing I’m doing is hitting the gym and lifting so I can stop being fat so maybe I can be physically attractive once I’m in shape and lean, but I struggle to do that with consistency sometimes, too.
I think this is why I ended up liking this character so much, because I see myself in her so much. The loneliness, the abandonment and trust issues, the anger and pain over feeling nobody likes me.