>>112891104She's already my second one, and unfortunately another therapist is not really in the cards. She already very kindly cut her price for me upon learning I don't have insurance AND that she's the closest therapist to me while also still being nearly an hour drive away. It's either her, or I just don't go to any therapist.
And honestly that might be for the best. She's not really the issue. I just have to come to terms with the fact that I am, frankly, a lazy sack of shit. Whether that's just how I naturally am or a result of depression, it doesn't really matter at this point. I have to try to make progress, but neither medication nor therapy seems to help. It's just a matter of personal will power which I have to try and learn to build up.
Plus, the feeling of wasting someone's time as they fruitlessly try to help me, and potentially costing them money since they're cutting me a deal for their time, makes me feel even worse.
