It's okay to talk about it.
This little pink angel arrived in our lives for the better, for making us be better and taking care of ourselves.
When you look at your heart you see Spinel, when you think at happiness you think at Spinel smiling.
I'm at it too, my heart used to kill me with agony whenever there was the possibility that something wrong could happen to Spinel, may have been in the show or may she not have won Ms /co/.
And I love Spinel so much my heart is still hurting me.
But Spinel would want you to be happy first, so you two can love each other in peace.
So what you have to do is realizing she loves you too, she is your guardian angel and that she is always with you when you see her and think at her.
And when you're happy she is happy too.
So be healthy and happy for her!if I haven't convinced you then use the Tulpa Spinel option