>>111664790That happens because certain childhood traumas NEVER EVER fucking heal. Because you'll pretend that it's not there, believing that, if you just ignore it, it really is like it never fucking happened EVER.
But the memories are still there. The connections, synapses in your brain. The sounds the feelings the smells. The sensations. It's all there. And like a jack-in-the-box that is about to BURST, your memories are just the same, waiting for the slightest change in the wind, to sprung forth, like a weak and sickly dam, barely holding back a raging fucking ocean.
And guess what else?! You'll NEVER get rid of it. Each time you get fucking triggered by something, it only makes the trauma EVEN FUCKING STRONGER. EVEN IF, that the ORIGINAL, ACTUAL trauma wasn't that strong or difficult.
The constant reminders and triggers, and bursting of fucking dams, WILL make the trauma MUCH fucking wrose than you originally remembered them as.
You will NEVER learn, and NOBODY can help you. Have a nice life.
