i want to sit on a sofa with Spinel and cuddle her, let her rest her legs over mine and pull a blanket over the leg to keep her warm. then i want to look into her eyes with a big smile, see hers turn watery, and kiss her while holding her tightly.
then i want to take her on a picnic and propose to her, only for her to reject me and for her to act really nervously so we go back home early.
then she locks herself in the bathroom for a while, i knock to make sure she's alright, she says she just needs some time alone. i say i'll go out for a while.
i go out, chuckling to myself after a while and thinking that i've just made her a bit shy and overwhelmed and that i'll propose again after a few months when she's become used to the idea. i buy a couple of her favourite pastries, one for each of us, and ask the baker to put a ribbon around the box so it looks nice. the baker gives me a smile and says to have a nice afternoon.
i walk back, a couple of hours has passed since i left, i'm already thinking about what we can have for dinner.
when i walk in the place feels odd for some reason that i can't place.
i walk to the bathroom as if to expect her still to be in there; it's empty.
i have a quick look around, she isn't anywhere.
weird. i guess she must have become bored of waiting for me to come back and gone out for some shopping, or to meet her friends.
hours pass and it is going dark, no word from her.
Tired, i go to brush my teeth, and notice her toothbrush is missing. so is her toothpaste. all her makeup is gone, her perfume. throwing open the shower curtains, her shampoos are gone, her sponge.
i feel a panic rising in me, i rush to the bedroom, and pull open drawer after drawer, all empty. hangars hang vacantly from the wardrobe. everything is gone.
i feel a horrible distress building in me, i thought we'd be together always.
