>>110044995>>110045187>>110045210>>110045235>>110045243>>110045259>>110045322Okay for some reason I've always had a weird fascination with bodily harm
As a kid I constantly cut myself just to watch the flesh spring open upon lifting the blade, revealing the white epidermis and seeing the red droplets form where capillaries were split, those same white edges soon being consumed with red, soon overflowing and trickling out...
Looking up videos on liveleak and pictures of necrosis, finding myself staring at them for hours on end.
Not a fetish, mind you, (at least not the gore part, I do get turned on, however, by characters being nursed back to health) it was more like that mindless enjoyment one would get from watching a lava lamp or playing with a plasma thing.
I cannot explain the entrancement gore and disease/biohazards provides me
No matter the cause, its the reason I'm studying biology and aiming for a job in either the medical or biohazard cleanup fields.
