>>102103764long periods of depression physically change your brain structure. Behavioral patterns become part of it too. 'Solving' it via attributing it to a discrete traumatic event doesn't do anything, though it can help understand the source of some patterns etc. Also for those of us naturally born with neurological weirdness, bipolar, adhd, schizo, etc., medication is sometimes necessary to even be basically functional
anon should find a therapist, not a book.