>>100092863Yeah I'm the same way. But there was one cringe in my life that still holds itself tightly to my heart.
Freshman year. I had a friend and finally decided to go to his wednesday church group for the first time. I moved around a lot as a kid and so was only experienced in holding one or two friends at a time. As we pull up I'm super nervous, we walk in, sit down at one of the tables and there sits about twelve or so other people that go to my school. I briefly introduce myself and basically say nothing the rest of the time I'm there, mostly deterring to my friend if there's any interaction. One person strikes me though, this girl. She's so pretty, she has these big eyes, black hair, and an infectious smile. Surely I could never be her friend, I couldn't be friends with any of these people, but it was a nice night while it lasted. Que a few weeks later and I'm spending all my time with these people. Going to church, youth trips to Art conventions, all the way to Seattle. Going from freshman to Senior in, at this point, what feels like a flash. All this time that same girl is in my mind. I befriended everyone in that group, and especially her. I remember a specific trip back from somewhere where I made everyone in the van laugh hysterically because I was, and still am, an absolute clown, and she sat in my sights the entire time. I remember getting her number and getting to talk to her as time went on. We became decently good friends.
My head was centered on the idea of prom. I wasn't going to go to any dance but Senior Prom, and in the meanwhile I would practice. Practice dancing, being a gentleman, knowing how to ask someone out. There was nearly three years of thought and preparation put into it. During that time I remember her liking other dudes, going out with them occasionally, getting obsessed with some dude. My heart sank with each time it happened, but I was determined to make this whole thing work. I danced like a mad-man every day-
