>>116017574>You don't understand anon.
Not him, but you don't understand. You're only 19. There's lots of people your age in the same position.
Dedicate some effort and a lot about your life can change in two years. Then you'll just be an average 21 year old and you can continue to build from there. You have lots of time to turn things around, be happy you're not almost 30 and feeling this way, that's when the existential dread really starts to set in.
The most important thing to remember is that you're always better off trying to at least do SOMETHING about it, instead of just spending your time lamenting/panicking. The clock's always ticking.