Assuming this isn’t bait (go ahead and post this on lolcow farm so people can call me a scrote or whatever)
I pity you
The world isn’t nearly as bad as it looks. I don’t know what you’ve been through or how much you’ve been hurt. Maybe I’ll never know what it’s like to be you. But I know that that sort of hatred isn’t ever healthy. It destroys you more than it’ll ever destroy anyone you hate, and it’ll prevent you from enjoying the world around you. Which is horrible. This world is beautiful. You deserve to be a part of it.
I wish I could help you see that. But that’s a choice you have to make for yourself. It’s a choice I had to make for myself. But I don’t know if you ever will, and so all I can do is love you and pity you and hope you get better.