>>3177176There's no real reason not to.
I've long come to the realization that I'm not going to be a content individual in life. I refuse to fall for the simple graces that pale in comparison to what could have been.
What -should- have been.
Other than the aforementioned interest in civilization- I am lingering purely of love for my dear mother and out of a sick twisted pride in acknowledging that consciousness is, inherently, a disease. Consciousness is sad because we're not given our choices. Even the worst of us deserve our own stories to tell.
It is better to hate, to go insane, than to blind yourself with false contentment. At least then I can experience the closest thing to happiness, however small, rather than waste everything by ceasing myself, and become all the wiser because of it.
Dreaming is better than living.
Experience is all that truly matters.
Denial of these things is a constant.
Take it for what you will; we're here to make the best out of a cosmic lottery.
