>>3148344there's a difference between wanting intimacy, and wanting henry christ himself
expections are set too high when you become alone: sort of festers and builds over and over until what you "want" out of a relationship is just unreasonable
wanting someone: who gives me undivided attention, treats me like an angel; masculine, confident as a freight train; who cradles me, sings a lullaby, spoons me to sleep; for-some-reason-instantly-resolves-all-earthy-tribulations--and it's silly, but that is what it is, now. just too long.
i think i'll be better suited for a relationship, guy or gal, with more realistic expectations, when i'm ready. my mind, and all.
that first post was some months ago? yeah that was in a vulnerable and rough spot. obviously still lonely but getting more mature about it. the day by day; adderall and effexor; thearapy. working it into something manageable at least.
