>I was only 14 years old >I loved Shizun so much >I pray to Shizun every night before bed, thanking him for the life I've been given >"Shizun is love" I say; "Shizun is life" >Senior disciple hears me and calls me a faggot >I know he was just jealous of my devotion for Shizun >I called him a cunt >He slaps me and locks me in the woodshed >I'm crying now, and my face hurts >I lay on the floor and it's really cold >Suddenly, a warmth is moving towards me >It's Shizun >I am so happy >He whispers into my ear "This is my hole. It was made for me." >He grabs me with his elongated, pale fingers and tightly binds me with a rope >I'm ready >Shizun hangs me up from the ceiling >He hits me hard >It hurts so much but I do it for Shizun >I can feel my bones relocating as my eyes start to water >I want to please Shizun >He whispers in a cold voice as his jade-like palms strike my face with love >Senior disciple walks in >Shizun looks him straight in the eyes and says "It's all dual cultivation now." >Shizun leaves through the window >Shizun is love. Shizun is life.