All I want to do is wait for winter to come and for Antarcticite to come out. I want to wait and wait until she messes up and breaks herself (possibly with the help of phos) and to collect her body. I'll then shape and polish and smooth her into a phalic object for my anal pleasure, allowing her to melt inside me. I can only dream of the pure Bliss her cool body dripping out of me could feel like.
To add to this, it would be interesting to see what human emotions and latent memories pop up during this. Being used and raped is a feeling and idea before humans we're even humans. Could she feel this pain? I hope she can. And with the idea of rape always comes with the idea of someone's seed entering you and fertilizing you. Could he feel the anticipation of parenthood only for it to never come, and always having this void that he couldn't explain? I hope so.
And another idea I just had, how do gems cope with trauma? After the fact (if I let her go) would she chip away at herself until she forgets? Is it even possible to have autonomy and forget all of it? I hope not. I would love to give her a chisel after I'm done and watch her slowly chip herself away into nothing, with each chip comes the slow realization that her while being is now engulfed in her victim hood.
And what if, after all she has been through, she comes back. 100s of years later after the rape, after the self harm, after the dreams of making another gem in her image only to be struck with reality. What if sensei sees her like this and all the sin she did to herself. At this point sensei is just a figment of the memory he once had of him, but still idealized none the less. What if sensei sees him a sinner, casting her away to exile, never to introduce the other gems to the horrors of the human world. Would she cry? Would she beg for death knowing, especially at this point, that it's impossible? I hope so.
What if after all this, she doesn't even get a head Pat?