so, I have depression and have somewhat recovered. idk if you guys were really looking for advice but I'll tell you about my experience
I was on meds for a while (prozac and adderall) and I felt like that helped but was merely a temporary relief that didn't address the center of the problem (it did help though so if you're not talking to a doctor you should).
I personally follow the "learned helplessness" theory of depression, or at least it applied to my case especially, that you've formed a habit of solving your problems by accepting them and trying your best to separate them from your mind, rather than actually trying to remove them in reality. Depression particularly attacks your will to fight - as in work, improve yourself, do difficult or unfamiliar things - and conveniently the only real way to get rid of depression is by doing those things.
You don't have to become a new person overnight, or have a magic moment where you say "from here on I'll change". You have to at least do something though. Right now, pick just one small thing you're going to do as a habit from now on and then do that, and then once you're in the habit increase it slightly, or pick another thing, and so on for the rest of your life.
-do some kind of exercise once a week
-eat slightly less shitty food
-leave the computer for 2 hours (when you don't have to)
-practice something you want to be good at for 10 minutes
-say hi to an actual 3d girl
If you fail once it's ok, just try again. If you fail 10 times it's ok, just try again. I'm still a huge loser, but I now at least have a handful of things I'm doing right.
banzai anons, we'll make it someday
that was pretty rad