I know this is a shitty place to go to, but oh well.>be me>is a reclusive skinny short femanon>kissless virgin, because I'm awkward, mega shy & autismo>have zero friends irl>live next to my neighbor who happens to be also a recluse, in the same age range as me (18-19), always just hear him play vidya all day, he never gets out, he's kind of weird but so am I>he's actually kinda qt>my mom literally insists that I hang out with him because I'm always just in my room all day>his family makes fun of him for never having a gf too>finally just agree to it because my mother wouldn't stfu about this>he comes to my house>nobody's home, my mom's at work>we go into my room>we're both pretty autistic but he's actually rly fun to hang out with, we get along & have a lot in common>watch hxh with him>it's nearing nighttime>stay up super late all the time so I get tired really easily now>we're both kinda sitting next to each other on my bed>decide to lay down & tell him I'm sleepy>he says it's okay & stuff>end up taking a little nap>I wake up to him literally rubbing my pussy through my shorts>my eyes widen & I ask him in a sleepy voice "what're you doing?">he just says "shhhh shhhh, go back to sleep">I have no idea what to do but I try to move away from him>he looks embarrassed & kinda disappointed>the entire situation is really fucking awkward>he just says under his breath "I think I'm gonna go now">he leaves before I have time to say anything
Am I "used goods" now, or whatever? We haven't talked since because it's painfully awkward. I don't see myself being with someone but either way, I wanted to wait till marriage. He didn't finger me or fuck me or anything like that, he just caressed my...lower areas, so to speak. I feel kinda gross & confused by the entire thing.
I liked him, but idk why he'd do that. Pls help. Should I give him another chance?>inb4 tits/vagina or gtfo>inb4 trap>inb4 fake story