>>188623820>Honestly suicide seems like the better option with every passing day.
I just don't get it, sorry.
I can't see how death would be a better option than either the neet life or doing something, anything else with your life.
No one knows exactly what death is like.
For all you know it could be that you just get stuck in whatever state of despair and fear you are in to drive you to suicide (or possible regret you feel past the point of no return) for what feels like eternity as your brain shuts down, trapping you in that state for what feels like forever.
Please at least try to find something to do that actually gives you some sort of joy in your everyday life, death will always be waiting for you sooner or later anyway.